Growing through Pain

So I started this in March but just couldn't write.  I have some competition because both of my daughters write and they do such an awesome job of sharing their feelings and I'm not so sure I can follow in their footsteps.  There is nothing like a "Mother's Love" no matter how old your children are they are STILL your children and when they hurt you hurt, when they are happy you are happy.  Our world was shakened and turned UPSIDE down this last March.  How could something so selfless on Tiffany's part end up starting a chain of events that NOT one of us could of ever imagined or predicted, but OUR God knew and He had been preparing us.  Mike had been teaching a sunday school class on the Soverienty of God and had just taught the class when that Monday Tiffany delivered two very healthy twins and then EVERYTHING started falling apart and we almost lost her at that point, but again God is in control and it WAS NOT her time but we didn't know that yet, all we could do was pray and have faith that God would help us through no matter what the outcome.

Over the last 5 months there has been many, many tears and laughter and heartache but more than that there has been a deeper LOVE and understanding of how GREAT our God is.  No matter the outcome we were determined to Praise our Lord.  We think that we are in such control of our lives when in reality we are NOT.  We know that it would be better to be with Christ than to stay in our worn out bodies and suffer pain, but yet we cling to life and pray for our loved one's to NOT die.  This is how God made us though.  Even Jesus wept when Lazaras died.  He understands our heartache and is there for us to comfort us to help us through the most difficult times in our lives.  Not sure how much I will actually blog but I did want to start and see what would come of it.  Thank you ALL for your prayers, love and support during the most difficult time in our lives and your continued support.

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